I can't remember what I was looking for on the web the other night; I was doing research regarding personal altars, I think. Whatever it was I was doing, I fortuitously ran across the Kaleidoscope Painter site, which I had seen a long time ago, but forgotten about. Like so many things . . .

What I like to do best with it is set the brush to almost the smallest possible size, then hit the "Auto" button and then just watch.

It's mesmerizing.

I've continued to feel really annoyed with myself, and disappointed, for having lost my little bell. Every time I go out in the morning to get the paper, I look for it; not that I really think I'll find it at this point, but I suppose stranger things have happened. I need to go out this coming weekend and suck up the leaves that have fallen since the last time I did it, but the memory of losing the bell makes me not want to do it so much.

I've been having such a good month, doing so many things that made me happy, which was exactly what I wanted to do with it. Losing the bell--which I know is very dumb, and a very small thing--upset me, and upset my equilibrium, because even though it was a very tiny thing, it really made me happy.

So I searched on the web to see if I could find a replacement for it, and I think I found one. There's a place called Show Off Your Stuff that makes slave jewelry with bells, and they look like the kind of bell that I lost. I wrote to them and asked if they would sell me a couple of loose bells, not really expecting that they would, but they said they will.

And they're only charging me a dollar, so I figure even if it's not exactly the same, I'm not out a lot.

They also make fetish jewelry so, you know, if I ever need any of that . . .