I've felt just frantically busy lately, although I know I'm really not. I
just have a lot of things I want to do, and there just isn't enough time for them
all. Particularly this week. One of the things I would like very much to do is
sleep, and I haven't been doing very much of that the last few days, mostly because
of Dinah. I wrote in an email to Misty:
Dinah is driving me NUTS. She threw up on "her" chair in the bedroom--the
one she always slept on. There was a blanket in it, so Bob washed the
blanket, but she wouldn't lie on it. So we put a *different* blanket in the
chair, but she *still* won't lie in it. It's like throwing up on it ruined
it FOREVER, even though it didn't actually touch the chair itself.
So instead of sleeping in the chair, she sleeps on the bed next to me. It's
Bob - Pyewacket - me - Dinah. I wake up in the night and it's like I'm
mummified. I can't move, and they *won't* move. If I finally thrash around
enough, Dinah will get off momentarily so I can at least turn over. Then
she comes back. Last night she was touching me on the face with one CLAW.
Just, you know, checking, I guess. Man.
It's driving me insane. I suppose this is something like people with babies
must experience--being woken up every night in the middle of the night. Bob said
that maybe we should get a king-size bed (ours is queen-size), but I don't think that
would help. They'd still be on either side of me, leaning on me, with all
this empty space on either side . . .
I guess it could be worse. Misty said one of her cats has taken to sleeping on
her head. Okay, that's poetic license. She actually said that Scheile has
started sleeping on her pillow, leaning on her head. I could see Dinah
doing that. She's gotten so she pretty much always wants to be on my lap, and
her preferred position is to rest her chin on my forearm, like when I'm typing.
Makes it difficult to type, but the cats must be accommodated, you know?
I'm not sure why it seems to important not to disturb them, but I remember waking
up in the night to go to the bathroom when we had Doña, and getting out of
bed very carefully so I didn't disturb her. And I do the same thing now,
with Dinah, although with her I can understand it a little bit more, because she
was so standoffish for so long, and I'm pleased that she'll finally sleep on the
bed now.
Although of course now I'm really wishing she'd just go lie in the damn chair.
We went to Lawrence last night to see Nickel Creek at Liberty Hall. I had never heard of them, but
Bob's friend Phil likes them, and when Bob saw that they were playing, he suggested
going.
I didn't really have very high expectations, but I loved them! They were
really wonderful. Sort of alternative-rock-with-mandolin. Kind of a combination
rock/bluegrass thing. I really like that plaintive, traditional folk music kind of
sound, and they did a bit of that, plus some of their own compositions. The female
singer has a really interesting voice, but I'm at a loss to compare it to anyone; the
guitar player was very good, but I thought the mandolin player was the most interesting.
I liked pretty much everything they played, but especially a song called "When You
Come Down."
Hearing them last night made me remember an album I have by a band called Snakefarm.
When we got home, I got down on my hands and knees to peer at my CDs and try to find it
(prompting Dinah to jump up on my back like a circus performer); I found it--I'd forgotten
that the title was Songs From My Funeral.
From a review by George Graham:
The premise behind this album is to present old, instantly recognizable, traditional folk songs,
many which were the mainstays of the hootenannies of the 1960s, and give them a very different
treatment, with hip-hop and techno-dance beats, and a dark, urban, sound reminiscent of a
collision among so-called acid-jazz, rave and film noire. The result is fascinating, and
on the whole, quite creative and artistically successful.
So I stuck it in the car CD player, and I took the Nickel Creek CD, which Phil had lent
us, to work with me. I listened to Snakefarm on the way to work, and after I got there,
I listened to Nickel Creek on the headphones. It was good headphone music--I only listen
to music when I really, really have to concentrate and want to shut out the world--but
sometime mid-morning I started feeling kind of, I don't know, down, I guess.
[Big surprise, right?]
I wrote to David that I thought I was going to have to stop listening to it, because
while I love the old traditional, and pseudo-traditional, folk music, it all seems to
be about pain or dying, and it was beginning to depress me. The realization came to me as I was listening to one of the
songs that Misty had recommended, "The Lighthouse's Tale," which has a lighthouse keeper
jumping to his death off the lighthouse after his lover drowns. A beautiful, beautiful
song, but so sad.
And "Sweet Afton"--imploring the Afton river to flow quietly and not disturb his love,
who lies in a grave near the banks:
Flow gently, sweet Afton, among thy green braes,
Flow gently, I'll sing thee a song in thy praise;
My Mary's asleep by thy murmuring stream,
Flow gently, sweet Afton, disturb not her dream.
I was also thinking about an album that Joanna sent me,
called North Wind, by Aengus Finnan. Beautiful, sad, and achingly evocative. Exactly the kind of thing that I love. Bob always laughs at me--the quintessential
one is Nick Cave's Murder Ballads. He says only Nick Cave could make an album
about murder and have it sell.
So anyway, all this was kind of flowing over me, and through me, and a little later David
wrote and said that he thought I sounded a bit fragile today, and was I all right? I said that I
was fine, that music sometimes does this to me--especially this kind of music. It makes
me sort of emotionally hyperaware
or something, makes my nerve endings buzz. I said I thought I had a mandolin hangover.
When You Come Back Down
You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you learn to play
When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down
I'll keep lookin' up, awaitin' your return
My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire
I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire
And I'll be on the other end, To hear you when you call
Angel, you were born to fly, If you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll catch you when you fall
Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings
I know the sky is calling
Angel, let me help you with your wings
When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
Take every chance you dare,
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down
~ Nickel Creek, "Nickel Creek"