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November 30, 2002
I forgot to color in my Daruma's other eye.
[ posted by Willa @ 08:20 ] [ link me ] ----- November 29, 2002If you want to read it all at once, here it is in pdf format, and in Palm Doc format.
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[ posted by Willa @ 18:26 ] [ link me ] ----- [ posted by Willa @ 17:42 ] [ link me ] ----- November 28, 2002One more day . . . [ posted by Willa @ 23:39 ] [ link me ] ----- Last night I had my freak out, then took a nap from about 9:00 to midnight, got up, wrote for a couple of hours, went back to bed. In my perfect world, I'd do that about three times a week. Realistically, with a job, I can't do that. I did it when I was unemployed for a few months, and I loved it. [ posted by Willa @ 19:15 ] [ link me ] ----- David Knopfler is KOCH Entertainment's featured artist this week, and there's a nice video of David's song, "If God Could Make the Angels," as well as an MP3 audio stream of the track. Next week (December 5), David is sponsoring a virtual dinner as a benefit for Adopt-A-Minefield, and I designed the website. [ posted by Willa @ 18:52 ] [ link me ] ----- November 27, 2002Perhaps the most eloquent poem of unrequited love ever written.
And sometimes, in a shop, the mirrors - Rainer Maria Rilke, Translated by Stephen Mitchell [ posted by Willa @ 11:02 ] [ link me ] ----- "An environment to explore the classic mythical story structure and to create your own stories." Start of the Hero's Journey. Looks interesting, doesn't work on Mac/IE. [ posted by Willa @ 10:54 ] [ link me ] ----- This is the way it has to be for me, to keep going and to keep writing. I can't allow myself to be influenced by the opinions of people who have very little idea of what I do, or I will freeze up and choke and toss it all away, like I almost did back in August. This is my dream -- I'm writing pro. I'm living my dream. How many people can say that? Sheila Viehl, in Star Lines, on why she doesn't read reviews of her books.[ posted by Willa @ 07:46 ] [ link me ] ----- November 26, 2002I keep feeling panicked because I'm not finished yet, because there are so many people who are finished. Today I was worried because I thought the story was going to be finished before it was long enough, then I figured out something else and I think it will be fine. I don't really want to take it to the last minute, but I can't, anyway, since I'm leaving town on Saturday. I keep forgetting, too, that I'm going to have all day Friday--I have to pack, but I'm off work, so surely I can spend most of the day writing if I need to. As long as I upload it before Saturday morning, I'm fine. I'm fine . . . . [ posted by Willa @ 22:08 ] [ link me ] ----- November 25, 2002Joanna sent me this gorgeous angel for my birthday.
[ posted by Willa @ 21:55 ] [ link me ] ----- November 24, 2002I totally forgot about the daruma I started at Daruma.com last year on my birthday. You get a daruma (a virtual doll representing Bodidharma) with one eye painted in, and you record your goal. My goal was "to finish the novel I started this year." The goal date was one year from that day, or today. It won't happen today, but it will happen later this week, and I'll be able to color in the daruma's other eye, signifying completion.
[ posted by Willa @ 15:40 ] [ link me ] ----- Hurricane information from Sarasota Herald Tribune, including photos from Tropical Storm Gabrielle (2001). [ posted by Willa @ 10:35 ] [ link me ] ----- Daily Zen has really grown since the last time I was there. Tish sent me a zen card from there--they have loads of beautiful cards. [ posted by Willa @ 10:04 ] [ link me ] ----- November 23, 2002"Wish me luck. " :) [ posted by Willa @ 18:27 ] [ link me ] ----- I juggled my wordcount goals; we're leaving on vacation on the 30th, and I just realized I won't be able to write that day. I'll have to upload the novel for verification on the 29th. So in order to make it, I've got to write 2,000 words a day from now through Friday. [ posted by Willa @ 17:29 ] [ link me ] ----- The euphoria of last week had faded into a more "Oh, my God, I can't do this, what was I thinking??" kind of mood. The struggle has resumed. [ posted by Willa @ 08:07 ] [ link me ] ----- November 22, 2002I'm working on the next installment now, but I'm having a hard time. It feels weak. I kept thinking about the fact that I was going to have to write a fight of some kind, and I had no idea how to do that. So I basically avoided it in the last installment, and that feels kind of cowardly. Although if I had tried to write a real sword fight, I doubt if it would have been very believable. Oh well. This is a first draft anyway, right? I can figure it out later ... [ posted by Willa @ 20:08 ] [ link me ] ----- My friend Misty sent me the lyrics to Christine Kane's song "Made of Steel," and it belongs in the soundtrack, too:
Some dreams sometimes move on [ posted by Willa @ 19:44 ] [ link me ] ----- If you sign up for the Bath & Body Works mailing list, you get a coupon good for a free full sized aromatherapy product when you spend $10. [ posted by Willa @ 10:06 ] [ link me ] ----- November 21, 2002David Nulty, who took the photographs of Antony Gormley's angel that I linked to the other day, sent me the lyrics to Robbie Robertson's Fallen Angel this morning. I have this album--it's one of my favorites--but I haven't listened to it for awhile, and I'd completely forgotten about this song. Well, consciously; from the lyrics I'd guess it worked its way in anyway . . . I don't believe it's all for nothing [ posted by Willa @ 09:19 ] [ link me ] ----- November 20, 2002I kept thinking that there was another author whose writing struck me as similar to Millman's and Pirsig's, but I couldn't think of his name, and it drove me crazy all day yesterday. It finally came to me as I was driving home last night: M. Scott Peck. [ posted by Willa @ 13:48 ] [ link me ] ----- November 19, 2002One thing about the last few days of marathon writing--the 1,666 I need to do every day for the rest of the month seems like a piece of cake. A walk in the park! I can do it with my eyes closed! With my hands tied behind my back! Well, maybe not that . . . [ posted by Willa @ 21:18 ] [ link me ] ----- [ posted by Willa @ 18:11 ] [ link me ] ----- Abbie The Cat Has A Posse is possibly my favorite website right now. Like Eugene Mirman, it never fails to make me laugh.
fish these days did you know? they come in many sizes [ posted by Willa @ 09:54 ] [ link me ] ----- I am so glad I'm doing this! I woke up this morning and laid in bed, full of ideas, and got up and wrote 1,000 words before breakfast. If I didn't have a deadline, if I didn't plan on finishing 50,000 by the end of the month, I would have stayed in bed. I think it was Sheila Viehl who said in her weblog that NaNoWriMo was good if only that it helped teach beginning writers how to write to deadline, and it's working for me. I need the discipline of a deadline, it seems. Okay, I found it. She says: Lots of folks from my writing clan are participating in NaNoWriMo, and I think it's a wonderful project. Anything that gets people to write has my seal of approval. I think it also gives people a real taste of what it's like to be a pro and write every single day toward a very tight deadline. If you want to be a multi-genre author and have more than two books out in a year, pretty much figure on every month of your life being NaNoWriMo. :) [ posted by Willa @ 09:49 ] [ link me ] ----- This morning I suddenly seem to be channeling Dan Millman. Or maybe Robert Pirsig. [ posted by Willa @ 07:58 ] [ link me ] ----- November 18, 2002I wanted to get to 30,000 today, which would have put me back on track, but I just couldn't do it. I did do over 3,000 words, though, and got up over 28,000 total, so I don't feel badly about that. Isn't obsessing over wordcount boring? One of the guys I work with has gotten in the habit of asking me at our Monday morning meetings how the writing went over the weekend. I rattled off my wordcount, and one of the other guys said, "Oh, but it's not about the word count, it's about the quality of the words," and both the first guy and I jumped in and said, "No, this time it is about the wordcount." [ posted by Willa @ 20:56 ] [ link me ] ----- Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels' hierarchies? And even if one of them pressed me suddenly against his heart: I would be consumed in that overwhelming existence. For beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror, Which we are just able to endure, And we are so awed because it serenely disdains to annihilate us. Every angel is terrifying. --Rainer Maria Rilke, The First Elegy (Mitchell translation) [ posted by Willa @ 16:44 ] [ link me ] ----- When I too long have looked upon your face, Wherein for me a brightness unobscured Save by the mists of brightness has its place, And terrible beauty not to be endured, I turn away reluctant from your light, And stand irresolute, a mind undone, A silly, dazzled thing deprived of sight From having looked too long upon the sun. Then is my daily life a narrow room In which a little while, uncertainly, Surrounded by impenetrable gloom, Among familiar things grown strange to me Making my way, I pause, and feel, and hark, Till I become accustomed to the dark. Plagiarist.com Poetry » Archive » Edna St. Vincent Millay » "Sonnets 07: When I Too Long Have Looked Upon Your Face" [ posted by Willa @ 16:25 ] [ link me ] ----- November 17, 2002I didn't make my goal for the weekend, but I did hit 25,000 words, which is pretty good. Halfway there. Just have to buckle down next week. Bob's going to be gone all week, and I don't know whether that's good or bad as far as the writing goes. I guess we'll find out. [ posted by Willa @ 23:26 ] [ link me ] ----- Loyalty is one of these commonly assigned characteristics. Angels are thought to be truly loyal because they are not subject to their own changing agendas. Angels are wholly devoted to God and their loyalty to him is unquestioned. "Angels A to Z," by James R. Lewis and Evelyn Dorothy Oliver; Page 309[ posted by Willa @ 23:12 ] [ link me ] ----- As you can see, I've slowed down a little the past few days; I'm trying to figure out how to get to the next point. I ended up spending all day yesterday out, running errands, and I came home tired and hungry, and by the time I sat down to write, I was basically out of gas. The plan today is to stay home--except for a quick trip out to the grocery store--make soup for my lunches next week, do laundry, and WRITE. [ posted by Willa @ 08:37 ] [ link me ] ----- November 16, 2002". . . why an angel? The only response I can give is that no-one has ever seen one and we need to keep imagining them." Antony Gormley, referring to his sculpture, Angel of the North. [ posted by Willa @ 21:22 ] [ link me ] ----- November 14, 2002I feel like the White Rabbit. [ posted by Willa @ 17:15 ] [ link me ] ----- November 13, 2002David Knopfler's latest album, Wishbones, was released in the U.S. yesterday. It was first released a little over a year ago in Germany; it's the soundtrack to "Fallen Angel," especially a track called "The Snowscape Paperweight Girl:" that's Sarah to a T. [ posted by Willa @ 19:59 ] [ link me ] ----- I put up a lengthy rant at my journal this morning about people who aren't able to read an enjoyable book without feeling guilty about it, and, also, about published writers who delight in belittling the people who try to join their ranks. I once had a friend call me a sybarite, which I don't think is necessarily completely true, but I do tend to believe, in spite of all the unhappy things that happen in anyone's life, that you should do the best you can to enjoy your life. Otherwise, what's the point? [ posted by Willa @ 11:03 ] [ link me ] ----- November 12, 2002It's hard to think of this as a rough draft. I keep wanting to go back and fix things, or I'm writing, and I think, "Oh, did I say something about this earlier?" or "Have I already mentioned this?" half the time because I should have and the other half because I shouldn't. Oh well. Hopefully anyone reading this will accept my failings and accept that it is basically a rough draft. I can't stop to fix things now! No time! :) [ posted by Willa @ 16:12 ] [ link me ] ----- November 11, 2002I'm floundering a bit at this point and, as you can see, procrastinating by doing "research" (aka wasting time) Although, who knows, it may be worthwhile, it remains to be seen. I took Sunday off, so I'm behind in word count, and I'm going to have to race to catch up this week. I think I need to go sleep now. Maybe something will come to me in a dream . . . I suppose I should go ahead and post today's anyway. I'm not totally pleased with it, but I guess that's not the point right now, is it? [ posted by Willa @ 22:36 ] [ link me ] ----- This angel holds dominion over imagination and helps us realize that a vivid imagination is a very healing tool to have, because we can visualize and create alternative realities with which to transform our own lives as well as the world around us. Angel Of The Day [ posted by Willa @ 22:04 ] [ link me ] ----- The angel of hail. A legend says that Yurkemi offered to extinguish the fire consuming the three men in the fiery furnace but Gabriel would not have it, contending that Yurkemi's help would not suffice. Angel Of The Day [ posted by Willa @ 22:02 ] [ link me ] ----- Angel implicated in the destiny of humans. Cadmiel has to make sure that every man and woman accomplishes their own destiny. Angel Of The Day [ posted by Willa @ 21:41 ] [ link me ] ----- A great prince who, when invoked, protects the invocant from gunshot wounds and from sharp instruments. Angel Of The Day [ posted by Willa @ 21:30 ] [ link me ] ----- This angel holds dominion over the sun sign Sagittarius. Those who were born under this sign can pray to Adnachiel for special protection and blessings. We can all pray to this shining one for the spirit gifts of independence, honesty and gregariousness. Angel Of The Day [ posted by Willa @ 21:29 ] [ link me ] ----- These are lovely: Advent Moments. Tiny little animated movies. Click the spinning asterisk for three new ones. Link from Boing Boing. [ posted by Willa @ 17:51 ] [ link me ] ----- November 9, 2002I know I should probably keep writing and get ahead, but I'm taking the fact that I just now stopped writing and did a word count, and came up with 665 words--or one more than I needed to hit my goal of 15,000 today--as an omen, and stop and go knit or something. [ posted by Willa @ 19:27 ] [ link me ] ----- I got my NaNoWriMo T-Shirt today, the one with the cute illustration by Claire of Loobylu. I got extra-extra-large so I can sleep in it. [ posted by Willa @ 17:51 ] [ link me ] ----- Of course, instead of writing, I'm surfing Drugstore.com's selection of groovy bubblebath . . . [ posted by Willa @ 17:41 ] [ link me ] ----- In order to stay on track, I only have to write 664 words tonight. [ posted by Willa @ 17:40 ] [ link me ] ----- Don't tell me to relax. I don't know how. Did I cross everything off my list today? I am hearing screaming in my head. Sound familiar? Here's help: The relaxing powers of lavender and chamomile soothe mind, body and soul. Realize everything will be okay. You have done enough for today. Emerge from the water practically a flower child. Sleep like a baby, at least for tonight. It's not magic; it just works. drugstore.com - Not Soap, Radio To Sleep Full of Sweet Dreams [ posted by Willa @ 17:37 ] [ link me ] ----- (when you need to turn up the volume on your inner voice of reason) Directions: To activate: Squeeze a generous dollop into warm, running water or lather directly onto skin. Forget singing in the shower, try a little talk. For each of your "issues" ask yourself: How do I feel about that? Why do I think I acted that way? What do I want from this situation? What can I do to change it? At the end of the hour, emerge from the water clear-headed, sure and focused. drugstore.com - Not Soap, Radio: Liquid Freud [ posted by Willa @ 17:32 ] [ link me ] ----- Surround yourself with bubbles infused with extracts from a four-leaf clover-rich field in County Kerry on the Emerald Isle. An old Irish verse is as follows: One leaf for fame, One leaf for health, One for a faithful lover, And one for glorious wealth. Celtic legend says that bestowed upon the finder of the clover are powers of clairovoyance and the ability to see elves and trolls - so watch where you step. Good things are already beginning. It's not magic; it just works. Not Soap, Radio: Awash in a Field of Four-leaf Clover [ posted by Willa @ 17:31 ] [ link me ] ----- November 8, 2002I didn't listen to NPR last night, so I missed the interview with Chris Baty. Fortunately, they archived it here:NPR : NaNoWriMo. [ posted by Willa @ 17:06 ] [ link me ] ----- As a biomusicologist, David Parsons is intensely aware that his compositions will involve a wide range of feline motor effects, including cerebral, subcortical and limbic. Because of this he strives to produce a synthesis of intricate feline aural stimuli in order to bring about 'emotional' musical responses from the cat which can alter its blood pressure and pulse rate and so change its breathing and the intensity of its energy modulating purr.
"Tibetan cat charmers?" That sounds like something worth pursuing. I don't know about the dancing, but I do know that at least one of my cats (Dinah) responds to music. She loves to be sung to and, especially, whistling. It makes her purr and roll around and, for all the signs, makes her very happy.
[ posted by Willa @ 11:56 ] [ link me ] ----- November 7, 2002"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day... "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick out handle?" "Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real." "Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit. "Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt." "Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?" "It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand." "I suppose you are Real?" asked the Rabbit. And then he wished he had not said it, for he thought the Skin Horse might be sensitive. But the Skin Horse only smiled. "The Boy's Uncle made me Real," he said. "That was a great many years ago; but once you are Real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always." U.N.C.L.E. FAN FICTION IN PRINT - Article - Fanfic and Fandom [ posted by Willa @ 16:16 ] [ link me ] ----- November 6, 2002For a long time now I have known that I am more interested in an artist's process than their art. While I love to look at art, and read fiction voraciously it does not excite me as much as researching the lifestyles and daily activities of the artists. Perusing an artist's journal or sketchbook is akin to experiencing someone else's life firsthand, their secrets, personality and passions being revealed. A photo of a workspace moves me to no end, it is a sacred place where the creator let's his/her talents flow out into the world unimpeded. But more than that it represents an artist's agreement with themselves to create and to sit with the process. I also want to know about the little things, the daily rituals that help us to be present with the work.
Grinding Ink...
[ posted by Willa @ 14:55 ] [ link me ] ----- November 4, 2002Men would be angels, angels would be gods. ~ Alexander Pope, 1688-1744. John Bartlett, comp. 1919. Familiar Quotations, 10th ed. [ posted by Willa @ 16:09 ] [ link me ] ----- November 3, 2002I just posted today's writing--cumulative word count is just a little over 5,000 words. A tenth of the way there. I may write again tonight, but for now (1:30 p.m.), I'm going to go out and find some lunch. Just a note--these aren't really "chapters," per se. I'm trying to treat each day's work as sacrosanct, carved in stone, until the whole thing is finished. I don't want to find myself going back and editing, which I could very easily do. So I'm trying to find a good place to stop each day, and that's that installment. [ posted by Willa @ 13:42 ] [ link me ] ----- November 2, 2002From the most happy regions of the spiritual plane, I have channeled the disembodied spirit of Gandhi, bringing to you the wisdom and ship of the lost city of Rome. To usher in the New Age of boxes you must heed my words and run happily. The time is soon when the space trucks of our galactic cousins will return and our collective boringness will reach critical mass. The highest frequencies of the universe will spiral through the leg chakras of the worthy, and our 3rd arm shall be opened. But first we must look deep inside and accept our inner cat. We must feel the inner cat, become the inner cat, walk it like it was a table. We must accept our karmic past, and as our yogi master, Dinah, always says 'The true form of a chair is actually a bright refrigerator , but enlightenment is like a shiny hat on the wind'. For there is no right or wrong, no book or anti-book, only one great and omnipresent shelf. Create a Religion [ posted by Willa @ 09:52 ] [ link me ] ----- November 1, 2002It's November 1, and the first installment of my NaNoWriMo novel, tentatively titled "Fallen Angel," has been posted, with an introduction here. It's a huge leap of faith for me to post this writing here, unedited. It feels a lot different from posting a journal entry--this is fiction! It's fairly easy for me to recount my day in the journal, quite a different thing to make things up . . . Anyway, I'm just reiterating that this is my first attempt at novel-length writing, it's going to be pretty raw and perhaps amateurish, and what I don't need right now is criticism. Nor do I want to discuss the philosophy of what I'm writing about, which will become more apparent as we go along. Of course, if you want to write and tell me how wonderful it is, that would be great! :) My goal is to write 50,000 words (or more) by the end of November. Wish me luck! [ posted by Willa @ 15:00 ] [ link me ] ----- |
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